All I have ever wanted in life is a family. Brothers and sisters to look out for me. Parents that were proud of me. A husband that i can spend my life with. I mastered the husband part. The family part has been rocky. I no longer have contact with my father. Due to my depression and anxiety, I just felt that it was too toxic to have a father that added to my mental instability. I have one blood brother and although things are OK at the moment, we have never had a strong relationship.
I’ve had many people come and go in my life, and make promises they just couldn’t keep. Almost a year ago I met a friend online that has been more of a brother to me from far away, then my blood brother. I know your asking yourself how could someone you never met be like family. I will tell you how. To have someone care about you on a daily basis. To show concern and worry when you haven’t called or woken up at a certain time. To want to spend time laughing and just talking about the day to day events that go on in our lives. He has given me these things and so much more. I can honestly feel that he cares about me and my well being. It’s a great feeling. I only hope that he knows how grateful I am for his love, friendship, and the role he plays in my life. Although I struggle daily with my mental demons, I can honestly say I’m happy and very blessed. I feel like God has blessed me.